Ok, I decided that I have several things to rant about. All in all this week has been great! But there are a few moral situations that need confronting.


First of all, I decided that I will not ever vote for Jeb or George Bush, ever, even if I am tortured to death. Do you know why? Is it because Jeb looks like a baboon, or that George has the vocabulary and aura of a third grader? Hell no. Let me give you my reasoning:


I was in traffic a few days ago, just driving along, listening to some random music, soaking up the beautiful rays and genuinely enjoying myself. Then, an obnoxious minivan comes creeping up on me in my rear view mirror. This guy was cutting people off, making sudden stops, and generally driving like an ass. Then, as he gets in front of me, he hits the brakes nice and hard, causing me to slam on mine. In my confusion and distaste, I happened to look at his bumper, where a "JEB!!" bumper-sticker was proudly displayed. From that point on I decided that if this man believes in JEB!! politics, and he is a proud representative of his political platform, that JEB!! will run Florida like this man drove his minivan. If Jeb could one day hear me, I would like to let him know that his supporter drove like an ass, and that caused me to vote him out of office. Smooth, real smooth. I decided to include George too, just because. I love my decision making process, don't you?


Another thing: this goes along with the irony in my title. I was at Sam's, working yesterday, when I saw an interesting T-shirt. There was this young, relatively attractive (however Pasco County looking) woman, wearing this shirt that read," If you don't like what I'm wearing, than you can undress me." The instant I saw this shirt, I felt a good-hearted chuckle, but then I looked at what she was surrounded by-- lots of children. So this lady has a shirt with a blatantly sexual phrase on it, and then has all the children to prove that she puts out. Wow. I felt my good-natured chuckle leave as I stared in disbelief and sadistic humor at this woman who clearly didn't think about her wardrobe very carefully.

One last scenario. This was today at work. I was working in SAMS gas station, just walking in between the gas pumps, helping people pump gas and work the machines. It was about 10:30 and my day had been going very well. This one particular man waved me down and asked for help with his membership and debit card at the machine. I patiently helped him and answered all of his questions, when suddenly, his ugly bitch wife opens the passenger door and says to her husband," Don't let him peek over your shoulder and steal your Pin Number!" I was deeply saddened. The irony of the whole situation was that all morning I was reading a book by the Dalai Llama, regarding a disciplining of the mind so that we can show compassion for all things. And aside from simply reading these things, I practice them on a daily basis. I am more disciplined and dedicated to this sort of cause than I have ever been. If only she knew what I truly felt... I was genuinely having a good morning until this middle-classed, middle-aged, ignorant, stupid, paranoid, hate-filled bimbo had to go and accuse me of a very serious crime. Most of the time, things like this just roll off my back. Like the whole JEB! thing is just for my own sick humor, and the whore t-shirt is simply amusing. This woman has the nerve to accuse me of attempting to get her "valued information" and use it to rip her off. Listen lady, if I wanted to rip you off I would just walk up to you, stick a gun in your mouth, and demand all your money and jewelry. Would that make you happy? Do I look criminal to you? I should just wear a shirt that says,"I can be trusted. I feel compassion for those that need my help. Do not accuse me of crimes." Oh well, I guess she'll get her wish of someone robbing her one day. I hope she learns to open her mind a little more before she speaks.

So anyways, I'm going to hang out with my brother and rock it up on Hudson Beach. Peace.

I had a dream last night that I feel like sharing. Basically, the gyst is that I was at a pizza place with my brother and Debbie. This one rowdy guy came in and started shouting and being a nuissance. Then he started breaking things, and I decided to intervene. We had a short verbal confrontation, then I decided that he would not leave everyone alone. So, I threw a knee into his gut, punched him in the back of the head, and threw him through the door, scattering on the steps outside. Then, to everyone's amazement, I sat back down and continued eating. The guy came back and said that he was going to go get his brother, and they were going to come back and shoot me. Considering I did not have a gun, I decided it was wisest to leave the pizzeria and head out. As we were pulling out, a big nasty car pulled up and he and this beefcake guy got out, carrying shotguns. Then, I think we left, but I don't remember what else happened. The whole time, my brother and Debbie were with me, but didn't say anything, and noone in the pizzeria said anything to me either. I just thought it was an interesting dream. Cool, eh?

I'm going for a walk. I just wanted to note that I am at peace.

Today was great. I recieved a lot of good news. Where do I start? Hmm, first off I got transfered at work. Now I work in the cigarette department. We sell wholesale to convienience stores, gas stations, and Arabs in general. It will be a lot more challenging than cashiering, and I will get to assemble orders, work a lot on the phone, and do a lot of bookkeeping. So yeah, thats great news. Another bit of good news is that I am practically accepted into a Runescape clan. They seem like a bunch of good guys, and I need more friends on that game anyways. Another bit of good news is that I seem to be making so many new friends that I'm having a hard time keeping track of them all. So, thats always a good thing. I've got some bad news though. My friend Nick was mugged recently while leaving his house. He lives in Tallahassee where he goes to school at FSU. If anyone has any information leading to the prosecution and or arrest of the assailants, let me know and I will give you a shiny new nickel. Thanks for your support.

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Your score is 35/50 what does that mean? Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

I am the Which smiley are you?

You may be the gayest smiley face that exists. You've got that crazy one-eye thing going, but you seem to lean towards homosexuality.

I worked today from 2-7 PM, got off work and went to my friend Adam's house, then came home a few hours ago and started playing online games. Interesting day really. I met a really cool guy from a game I play online, Runescape 2. He's interesting and with hope I can join his clan and kick some ass with those guys. Today at work these punk kids were crossing through the parking lot, and I was working the gas station. So, being the friendly man that I am, I said hello to one of them as he was driving by. Being the punk bitch that he is, he said something along the lines of,"Shut up, poser." I nearly laughed. I feel deep pity on such people. I wonder what his parents are like. They're probably the kind of people that make the baby Jesus cry. :( Oh well, what goes around comes around. I was reading some interesting Zen philosophy today, and I feel like sharing it with whoever decides to grace my website. This book is entitled, "The way of Zen" by Alan Watts
- - - - "Things do not exist in their own right, but only in relation to one another, as a solid cannot be distinguished save in relation to a space. In this sense, the solid and the space, the sound and the silence, the existent and the nonexistent, the figure and the ground are inseparable, interdependent, or, "mutually arising", and it is only by maya or conventional division that they may be considered apart from one another."
- - - "This is why the Hindu-Buddhist insistence on impermanence of the world is not the pessimistic and nihilistic doctrine which Western critics normally suppose it to be. Transitoriness is depressing only to the mind which insists upon trying to grasp. But to the mind which lets go and moves with the flow of change, which becomes, in Zen Buddhist imagery, like a ball in a mountain stream, the sense of transience or emptiness becomes a kind of ectasy."
- - - "It is fundamental to every school of Buddhism that there is no ego, no enduring entity which is the constant subject of our changing experiences. For the ego exists in an abstract sense alone, being and abstraction from memory, somewhat like the illusory circle of fire made by a swirling torch. Thus and attempt to cling to the ego or to make it an effective source of action is doomed to frustration."
- - "For to one who has self-knowledge, there is no duality between himself and the external world... This is why the egocentric attempt to dominate the world, to bring as much of the world as possible under the control of the ego, has only to proceed for a little while before it raises the difficulty of the ego's controlling itself."
- - "Karma is thus the fate of everyone who "tries to be God". He lays a trap for the world in which he himself gets caught. Nirvana is the way of life which ensues when clutching at life has come to an end. A Buddha, therefore, is a man of no rank. He is not above, like an angel, nor below, like a demon... the law of the Round is that what goes up must come down, and vice versa. He has transcended all dualities whatsover, and thus it would mean nothing to him to think of himself as a superior person or a spiritual success."
- - Just a few things to think about. I actually highlighted them because I always seem to lose sight of what (to me) makes the most sense and is the most sensible and ultimately real explanation of my life. It's always seemed to right true to me. Hopefully you can take some of that with you.

Yeah, there was no wind again today, but more than yesterday. I almost had my kite to the upper winds, but then it would die down and the kite would spiral down to its death. Woe is me. On a lighter note, "Get your filthy paws off me you damn dirty ape!"

Hello. Today was splendid. I bought a dragon kite at Sams, and then when I went to fly it I realized that there was no wind. Yeah, I was running around like an idiot trying to get this kite high enough so that the higher winds would take it. I failed miserably. In other news, I got jack shit back from Uncle Sam for my taxes. Out of the 10k that I made last year, I got back 109 dollars. To make matters worse, when I see the COST OF WAR counter, I realize that my money that I give to help this country is absolutely pissed away so that we can feel really badass over in the Mid East. God Bless America. Anyways, I'm going out with Debbie tonight. We will probably make a pizza and have dinner together. Wish me luck. Anyways, Germany really rules. It is my homeland:

Today was great. Debbie will be over soon. Peace and love in this house. Yeah man.

Well, I've had a pretty boring day. Accomplishments of the day: 0.002317 Ok, so I breathed a little, read a few pages in my Zen book, and went to class and vegetated. I should have a better shot at success tomorrow. Woot. I have decided that my views on life at late have been too strong and that I need a reevaluation of my views on morality, logic, and just living in general. I've developed this "college mindset" too much, and I decided that I should stick to a more middle path in my spiritual/political/economical life. Whatever progress that is must be good, eh? Maybe you have no idea what I'm talking about, but if youre a "thinkin' person", than perhaps you can understand what I'm saying here. Release your fears, apprehensions, and views and just live life as a noble person. Treat others with respect always, and above all: Listen to Judas Priest. Amen. Picture of the day: I was doing a search for "Gauls" which was a tribe of Germanic Warriors that were around in ancient history when the Romans and all those good people ruled the world. I typed that into an image search, looking for a cool warrior picture, and this was one of the results. Enjoy.